Sunday, January 15, 2012

Lessons from Mother Teresa

When I was in Haiti, I visited the Missionaries of Charity in Les Cayes.  This is one of many Missionaries of Charity locations throughout the world.

The Missionaries of Charity is "a Roman Catholic religious congregation established in 1950 by Mother Teresa of Calcutta, which consists of over 4,500 sisters and is active in 133 countries.  Members of the order designate their affiliation using the order's initials, "M.C." Members of the congregation must adhere to the vows of chastity, poverty and obedience, and the fourth vow, to give "wholehearted and Free service to the poorest of the poor." - That description is per Wikipedia.  They are better about being concise in definitions than am I.

Mother Teresa - photo from Wikipedia

This place is HOLY.  To describe it does not do justice, but I will try.  It is a really nice building in the middle of Les Cayes, which is not exactly a nice city.  It is U shaped, two floors, surrounding a small chapel where the sisters, workers and patients (if they choose) attend mass and pray. The purpose of this building is to care for the poorest of the poor.  What does this look like? Well, in this particular instance, there are over 100 severely handicapped children.  Parents in this part of the world generally do not have the resources to care for children such as these, as they can barely care for themselves, so they often drop them off for care and leave.  These children are as well cared for as possible, but of course there are many more children than there are sisters to care for them.  They provide physical, occupational and light therapy for these kids (among other things) and provide them with a life that they could have never had otherwise.  Downstairs, there is a hospice for dying adults (the room we visited was full of women, but there is a men's side as well).  Here, the poorest of the poor are afforded the right to die while being cared for and with respect for there humanity.  Other people come to the Missionaries of Charity who are sick with TB or AIDS or other diseases who are just too poor to get help elsewhere...and the sisters do what they can to help. There are no photos allowed in there, so you just have to use our imagination.

I expected this place to be sad, and to leave there drained and heartsick for the abandoned children.  But that was not my impression.  I was encouraged. If this place did not exist, where would these people be right now? Would their last days on earth be spent on the streets? In the slums?  What would become of these beautiful, handicapped children? I am just so thankful for Mother Teresa and her Call.

After that, I was just so thirsty to understand her.  I wanted to know how it was that a human could accomplish so much in an 80ish year life.  I had two main questions:  1. What made Mother Teresa so special? Aren't there many very holy people who walk this earth doing amazing things that we never hear the name of? 2. What was she really like? Did she ever feel overwhelmed by her mission, or feel like she couldn't ever do enough?

So, I read a biography of her, in fact I think it is the only authorized biography of her that has been published (meaning she said it was ok to write, and met with the author in the process).  It is by Kathryn Spink, and is probably the best book I have ever read. Maybe because I had just seen what I had just seen, maybe because it hits me at a time in my life that I need inspiration, maybe because it is just that good of a book.  Either way, I was very inspired and wanted to just share 3 things of the many that I gleaned from this book.

So, after a very long introduction, here are my 3 lessons:

I cannot use the "I'm not Mother Teresa" excuse to explain away why I am not making a marked difference in the life of the poor. Mother Teresa was not a created being any different from me.  All she did was the next thing in front of her to provide dignity and respect for the poor. 

In response to the idea that she was holier than other people, or that she deserved attention, she referred to herself as ordinary: "She knew that to enshrine Mother Teresa in Calcutta was potentially a means by which people could absolve themselves from their own immediate and daily responsibility.  Like sending a check from the comfort of an armchair, applauding the unattainable virtues of Mother Teresa was potentially a buffer against real personal commitment.  So it was that she was the principal exponent of her own weakness.  'Holiness,' she would insist when people acclaimed her as a living saint, 'is not the luxury of the few.  It is a simple duty for you and for me.' 'If there are poor in the world, it is because you and I don't give enough.'" - Quoted from Mother Teresa: An Authorized Biography by Kathryn Spink.


That is so convicting, right? How many times have I looked at a problem (homelessness, hunger) and thought it was too big a problem for me to handle, which somehow absolved me of any responsibility?  I will just say: a LOT.

Jesus meant what he said when he said "what you do for the least of these, my brothers, you do for me." If we are followers of Jesus, which I am, we should be seeing our Savior's eyes in the eyes of the poor. When Mother Teresa talks about the poor, she is not always talking about the economically poor, but also the struggling people in this world, whether they have money or not.  We are to think of them as Jesus, and to treat them as such.


When Mother Teresa was asked about the "secret to success" in her mission, "The 'success' as she saw it, was entirely dependent on the recognition of Christ in the poor and on spiritual values to which social work, very good and commendable though it might be, gave insufficient credence.  Mother Teresa's relationship with God was a very personal one. 'I have no imagination," she once acknowledged, 'I cannot imagine God the Father. All I can see is Jesus.' When she looked at the poor she saw Jesus in his distressing disguise' - Quoted from Mother Teresa: An Authorized Biography by Kathryn Spink.


If I could look at people and see them as Mother Teresa saw them, the suffering in them to be a reflection of Jesus' suffering, as people of great value, how different would my attitudes and actions be?

Serving may not seem responsible.  We are called to do things that sometimes don't make any sense.  We are called to help people who are in need, regardless of how they got there. 


This is difficult for me.  I tend to be judgmental.  If someone is poor, homeless, or out of a job as a direct result of their bad choices, I am much less likely to be compassionate than I would be if someone were homeless because their house got hit by a tornado, or lost their job because of an injury.  If someone was irresponsible and lost everything, I sometimes think "these are the consequences of their actions, they made their bed and should lie in it."  This is sort of an extreme stance, and I am more compassionate than I make myself sound...but the principle is true.  What is Mother Teresa's response to this?

"Her response was to seek immediate and practical ways to meet the need as she found it, rather than to condemn what might be seen as the causes of that need.  In doing so she paid little heed to considerations of personal safety or the kind of reasoning that pointed out the magnitude of the need in relation to the capacities of her growing but nonetheless small congregation...Had she ever stopped to 'reason' in terms that gave priority to the number, results, efficiency and the magnitude of an action, she would never have picked up the first dying person from the streets of Calcutta." -Quoted from Mother Teresa: An Authorized Biography by Kathryn Spink.


There are so many other things I could say about this woman, but I think I have made my point.  YOU and I are not so different from HER - I cannot hide behind the claim that "I am no Mother Teresa" as if that is some excuse to not do something.

Watch out...I am now reading the biography of Dietrich Bonhoeffer.  That could be an interesting post...

Monday, January 2, 2012

Potty Party

Hunter is 3 years, 3 months old. I have been stressing about his potty training since he turned 2. I had it in my head that age 2 was the cutoff: he needed to be potty trained.

There are a couple problems with that:

1. I didn't have time or patience to devote to it - Benny was born when Hunter was 20 months old. Diapers are so easy.

2. He was uninterested. He has used the potty some, but never really cared that some of his friends were potty trained. Hunter is a very smart kid, speaking very well and understanding/explaining complex ideas. So I figured he would just decide for himself when it was time.

Well, I realized last week that this weekend would be my last long-stretch off work that I could devote to this task. We got 4 days off work, and Hunter appeared an eager pupil, so potty training became our main event of the weekend.

I read everything I could find on the subject, and nothing really seemed like it would work for him. So here is what I did.

Keep in mind that my normal mothering style is positive-based. I try (and fail more than I would like to admit) to only provide positive reinforcement. When my kids are doing what I don't want them to do, I try to suggest another alternative. The other thing is I am very very loving towards them, lots of "I love you's" and hugs, kisses and cuddles in our house. Hunter is very confident that I will snuggle him at any time and that I love him very much.

That being said: I took a very extreme approach to potty training. I told him on Friday morning, "ok, you are a big boy now, no more diapers unless it is nap time or bed time" and just put underwear on him. Then I made him go sit on the potty a lot. Pretty much every hour, sometimes more. We had LOTS of accidents! Every time there was an accident, I lowered my voice and made it clear that I was very disappointed: "remember you are a big boy? Big boys use the potty!" "I am soooo disappointed!" "that is disgusting, now I have to clean it up!" "next time you really need to use the potty"

But...when he went in the potty, I was clapping, yelling, calling everybody an letting him tell people on the phone, M&M's for everybody!!! We had several BIG parties. In between, I reminded him of how proud of him I am, and gave him lots of extra snuggles.

Day 1: we were about 50/50 hits and misses
Day 2: more like 75/25
Day 3: accident free
Day 4: that is today; we shall see

Anyway, I devised my potty plan based on the time I had allotted, my normal parenting style, but mostly based on Hunter's unique personality. If you are looking for advice from me, that is all I can give you: devise your own method based on those things...don't try to do something just because it worked for someone else.

The end, except not really...

Monday, December 12, 2011

Great Whiteout of 2011

I do not have much time to blog right now.  There is so much going on, but I wanted to just copy/past an email I sent to one of my dear friends, summing up what is going on. As soon as "the dust settles" I will definitely blog some more of my thoughts.

Here is the email:

I will think about next week, next week. You wouldn’t believe my life right now. Haiti was a very interesting experience. Read about my thoughts at Haiti.schweitzerumc.org. I have more thoughts and lots of pictures, I will share asap.


While I was gone, Justin decided to tear up the floor in the kitchen and entry way (hardwood and tile) because we need new tile. Then he also tore up the carpet and padding in the basement. We plan to refinish the concrete. He had to use a sander to get up the glue that was sticking the padding to the concrete. He took every precaution he could to keep the dust downstairs, but it failed miserably. There was dust all over our house. Like, so bad we have to wash every piece of clothing, and every towel/blanket and everything. We also had to take all our possessions out of our house and clean them off. We still cant turn on our heater because there is dust in the ducts, so we need them professionally cleaned. We slept at home last night, finally, because I cant stand to be away from home any more, but had to use space heaters and the house looks like a tornado went through…seriously. Anyway, I cant properly describe the mess in the limited time I have right now, but needless to say, I am extremely stressed. We are dubbing it THE GREAT WHITEOUT OF 2011.

Because we are extremely blessed people, we have not had to tackle this problem alone.  Several of our friends showed up to help us clean on Saturday.  There is no way we could be anywhere close to where we are without the amazing, selfless, hard-working people in our lives that gave up their own agendas on Saturday to help us make our home more liveable.

I was already stressed because I knew I was coming back to HUGE messes at work, I was not expecting my home to follow suit. I am thankful for all I have, and definitely have it better than those folks in Haiti, I am just really having a hard time not feeling sorry for myself. Sounds so selfish, especially in light of all the suffering I witnessed last week, I know. I am having a hard time reconciling it in my head.

More Later -

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Thankful

What a blessed life I live! If you are reading this, I just wanted to challenge you to keep a list of things you are thankful for, maybe in a journal, maybe on a post-it…however you want, and just keep it available to remind yourself how blessed you are. I promise you, life is better when you focus on the positive! We all have challenges in our lives, and periods of our lives that seem hopeless, but we can never EVER lose hope!


MAY THE GOD OF HOPE FILL YOU WILL ALL THE JOY AND PEACE AS YOU TRUST IN HIM SO THAT YOU WAY OVERFLOW WITH HOPE BY THE POWER OF THE HOLY SPIRIT. ROMANS 15:13

In honor of the month of November, and Thanksgiving, I have been participating on facebook in the Thankfulness Project, which was to post something you are thankful for every day of November. Below are my entries along with some commentary in italics, because, I am me after all, and always gotta have commentary:

November 1 - just some inspiration for the project – Finally brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable – if anything is excellent or praiseworthy – think about such things. Phil 4:8

November 2 – Today, I am thankful that I live my life surrounded by remarkable people. Whatever the world throws at me, there is always someone who has gone through it before. Thank God for surrounding me with “a cloud of witnesses.” Heb 12:1
November 3 – Today, I am thankful for my job. I get to do work I enjoy, for a company I believe in, with people I really care about. I am truly blessed!

November 4 –Today, I am thankful for my smart, hilarious, adorable, sweet, big-hearted oldest son, Hunter! I am totally in love with my kiddos – they brighten every day, and I know I am annoying about it but choose to do nothing to correct my annoying behavior…sorry!

November 5 –Today, I am thankful for my adorable, strong-willed, smart, precious, active, wild, snuggly, squishy and sweet youngest baby boy, Ben, Benny Boo or Benjy! I was going to try to use the same number of adjectives to describe Benjy, but forgot!

November 6 – Today, I am thankful for my amazing parents. If I grow up to be 1/10 as awesome as them, the world will be a better place from having me in it. Words fail me, but just trust me: they are even more awesome than you think!

November 7 – Today, I am thankful for my church. It is not a perfect institution, and certainly not a perfect group of people, but we are on a mission, and our Leader is perfect. So that is pretty cool! Our church is going through a “Healthy Church Initiative” project right now, where an outside consulting firm came in to do a checkup and give us some suggestions for change. This was the day those suggestions were announced, and it just showed me how great of a church I am blessed to belong to.

November 8 – Today, I am thankful for perspective. Things are rarely as hopeless as they appear, and when we trust in the Lord, He fulfills His promises, just not usually how we expect. “And we know that in ALL things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28

November 9 – Today, I am thankful for Fall. What a beautiful season. I think this was a day where the trees were in their most beautiful state, it was an amazing Fall in the Ozarks this year!

November 10 – Today, I am thankful that I can read. Literacy is a gift, and without it my life would be vastly different.

November 11 – Today, I am thankful to live in this country. We were founded by deeply optimistic principles, and have been defended by deeply committed veterans. What a testimony to the world that Freedom is not Free, but is worth the sacrifice. Thank you Veterans! – This was veterans day.

November 12 – Today, I am thankful for the lake. So peaceful.

November 13 – Today, I am thankful that my husband, kids and I are healthy. I absolutely never take good health for granted!

November 14 – Today, while I am not thankful for Mondays, I am thankful for weekends! Especially ones that are as blessed as this last one was. And, I survived Monday! Goodnight!

November 15 – Today, I am thankful for laughter. Sometimes it is all we need to get through a day!

November 16 – Today, I am thankful for my busy schedule. I am living a full life and I love it! When I do get overwhelmed, 30 minutes in my chair usually does the trick. Calm in the middle of chaos…so I guess that is two things today: busy life and calm breaks.

November 17 – Thankful for some really good news I heard this morning!! Seriously, people. So much to be thankful for! A brother getting married, a friend having a baby and another friend getting a new car! (those are all really awesome things, trust me!) Thankful day 17 is super-easy! Keep the good news coming!

November 18 – Today, I am thankful it is Friday. I really need a weekend!

November 19 – Today, I am extremely thankful for a day at home. I cant even begin to tell you how badly I needed a day like this! Spending the day at home with my boys, trying to catch up on chores = my idea of a perfect Saturday!

November 20 – Today, I am thankful for three things: Sabbath rest, coffee, and girlfriend. I’m really looking forward to church this morning, chicken chili in the crockpot for lunch, my hubby coming home from deer camp and…girls night out tonight!!

November 21 – Today, I am thankful for a warm home, car, coat and workplace. So blessed to have a warm place to be!
November 22 – Today, I am thankful for friends. Specifically, friends who can make me laugh when things are tough. Life is short, belly laugh as much as possible. That is my advice.

November 23 – Today, I am thankful for JEANS DAY!! One day a year, we get to wear jeans to work as a fundraiser for the ADA. Best work day of the year! Then a 4 day weekend, SWEET!

November 24 – This was Thanksgiving, and I saved being thankful for my hubby until the actual day. I mean, I was thankful for him everyday, but wanted him to get Thanksgiving as his day to be thankfulled for. Today, I am thankful for my husband. Through all that life brings, he continues to be my partner and friend. Life is hard, and I am thankful to get to spend it with that man. He has a servant’s heart and is a fabulous dad. My kids and I are blessed to have him as ours. Happy Thanksgiving!

November 25 – Today, I am thankful for my whole fan-damily, including those near and far, my side and in-laws! I am extremely blessed to get to raise my children surrounded by such love!

November 26 – Today gets an A+. I guess I forgot to say what I was thankful for that day. Probably just my life in general. We spent that day at home all day, and then went on a date that night…our first in at least 6 months! So, that was pretty nice!

November 27 – Today, I am thankful that my boys spent the night with my parents, and I slept till 8am. Seriously disoriented from sleeping so late. Good morning.

November 28 – Today, I am thankful that my children have such different personalities! Makes life extra extra fun!

November 29 – Today, I am thankful for Christmas!! Best season of the year!

November 30 – Today, I am thankful that I have so much to be thankful for! I could easily list thousands of things I am thankful for, and still be forgetting some. Particularly, today, I am thankful that I am able to follow God’s call to Haiti and know that my kids, my home and my work responsibilities are all in good hands. I feel at peace because I am surrounded by people who make my life easier than it could be.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Country Names

Ok, I have been trying to think of a way to blog about our country names so that we can remember this ridiculous time of our lives, but I guess the best way is to just say it.

One day, Justin decided we needed country names, so together he and Hunter came up with them. Mind you, I am aware that Hunter Wayne is the countriest of all country names...so that is part of the irony. Please do not be offended if one of our country names hits you wrong...that is the point: we are idiots 'round these here parts.

So Justin and Hunter named me Betty. As part of the joke, I always argue with them and say "no, my name is Mommy!" and get all mad! To which, Hunter and his Daddy say "you're Betty! We LOVE YOU BETTY!!" then I act more and more mad. It's funny to us, so whatever.

There are 2 really particularly dumb stories that go along with this. First: Hunter's new favorite song is "black Betty" he and Justin play it really loud and sing to it. Black Betty is from Birmingham, according to the song. I, too, was born in Birminghan, so my boys took that as a sign that they are right and I am wrong, I MUST be Betty!

Also, the other night, Hunter said "hey Mommy! You're Betty!! Haha!" and I said "nah, my name is Flo" to which he responded "no, Betty, Flo is at home with Uncle Zak!"

Well...the country names have spilled over to the rest of my family. Here, I introduce you to (from back to front and left to right, in order of appearance):

Cletus and Flo

Edith and Jed

Bob, Betty, Hank and Bill

We realized when writing this post that Ray and Anjalesa have not yet had submitted and approved names. When that happens I will let you know.

You're welcome.


Sunday, November 27, 2011

A post about Haiti

I am leaving on a mission trip to Haiti in 4 days. I have so much to say about this that I don't really know where to start. I am going to attempt to keep up the blog from there, but since the Internet is spotty, we shall see. Here are my preliminary thoughts:

When Justin went to Haiti last year, it was life-changing for both of us. He went with a larger group than I am going with (his group had 10 people, I am going with 6). They encountered some political issues there, as there were riots relating to an election, so they got stuck down there for a couple extra days. They were scary days. It was complicated to get them home, but they did get here. We learned a lot about the political climate, how difficult it is for those who live down there, but the most important thing we learned was the kind of Hope that Espwa brings to the people of Haiti, and Southern Haiti in particular.

Pwoje Espwa is a village, established to house and educate orphans (some whose parents are deceased and others are economic orphans-i dont have time to go into that right now) in Southern Haiti, near Les Cayes. There are currently 650 children who live, eat and learn there. This is the largest orphanage in the Western hemisphere and is in the poorest country in the western hemisphere. Besides taking care of these kids, Espwa provides lots of jobs-they employ many Haitians, and have trade schools (which are being more developed). It is truly a place of Espwa, which means Hope in Haitian Creole (their language).

They also provide some assistance to the nearby prison, which is a humanitarian nightmare all of its own. Besides all of that, they also have a clinic on site that provides healthcare to people from the neighboring areas, as well as the kids. There is a new clinic being built, that is going to be state-of-the art for Haiti, and is something I am very excited about! I really get pumped about improving delivery of healthcare to impoverished people, it is so important to encouraging improvements in all areas of society. It is hard to build a society with people whose chief concern is their health. This actually translates to the grand ole US of A, but I'll save that soap box for another day...you're welcome.

I am very excited to meet my friends in Haiti, face to face, and hope you will join me on the journey by your prayers. It will be a challenging trip, but one I know I am called to go on.

I think we will be trying to update our Haiti blog during the trip, although I am not sure who is delegated to do that, so I'm not sure. At the very least you could peruse the blog entries from the previous trips.

Haiti.schweitzerumc.org

If you want to know more about Pwoje Espwa, find out at:

Freethekids.org

Peace out.



Saturday, November 19, 2011

Tis the Season

The other day a very wise woman said:

"you have to remember that Jesus is the reason for the Season, and that the Season is All The Time!" I couldnt agree more. We decorated today, so we can enjoy this beautiful season with lights and fun decorations.

I Love Christmas!